Simple Life In A Changing Society..

I HATE..

Din sleep well the night before.. pondering about myself and things I've gone through.. as usual. How I wish that I'm really a leo with a leo characteristics.. someone who is confident, like to mix around, more decisive.....

I HATE myself for being shy and quiet.

I HATE myself for being indecisive and beating around the bush.

I HATE myself for being inconfident.

I HATE myself for being choosy and fickle-minded.

I HATE myself for being lazy.

I HATE myself for being naive.

I HATE myself for thinking through so much bullshyt things and not moving on.

And I know.. I got a face that repels people away.. whenever I'm sad.. troubled.. annoyed.. It doesnt mean "Leave me ALONE!" .......

I HATE to be ALONE.

Sigh.. relieving.. maybe I can look all these again to remind myself..
how these things have made me feel lost.. made me lose precious chances.. made me an introvert person..

posted by binz @ 1:46 AM